And if you’re reading this, yes, I mean you. I didn’t know how much it meant to me that people read this blog until I started receiving emails and comments. Lately, I’ve received some very encouraging and heartfelt emails from both friends and strangers and they’ve meant the world to me. Any of you who have gone through a trying time (which would be ALL of you) know that sometimes a sincere word is like a drink of water in what can seem like a marathon that you didn’t sign up for.
I am being tested. I am a control-freak who can’t stand not having a sense of, well, control over a situation. This deployment has reminded me that I’m helpless. I can’t stop the war. I can’t throw myself in front of whatever danger may come J.’s way. I can’t make the temperature drop so that he doesn’t feel like his insides are boiling. There are very few things I can do. I can write letters and send pictures. I can make sure J. knows I’m on his team. I can pray. For J.’s wisdom. His safety. His comfort. And my attitude. I can pray that for once I will "let go and let God."
I am still working on that. There are days when I feel like I have reached my limit – like I’ve gone far enough (maybe you’ve had these days). And then I get an email or a comment. And its like God is reminding me that he won’t let me go through all this by myself. So thank you. Seriously. Thank you. And if you’re the type, please pray for our soldiers. I’m sure such never-ending bravery is exhausting.
rebecca says
there is so much that i’d like to say to you. but oddly, no words. i thank you. my hubby travels because of work every now and again (he’s been gone for 6 days now), every time i start feeling stressed and overwhelmed, i think of you and all the other wives of soldiers. your sacrifice for our country. your strength is dynamic. my family prays for yours daily
chris says
I too have a blog where I update about my random thoughts about my husband being deployed. I check your blog and feel kindred spirit. It is nice to know that people are reading. Stay strong. The Serenity prayer has been my guide.
Karen says
I too enjoy your blogs and check it everyday. I know my husband only deploys 4 months at a time and I could never imagine him being gone for a year. You are such a strong person and doing a great job. I know sometimes it doesn’t feel like it but you are. My thoughts and prayers are with you and J. and E.
Erin Beck says
I am hooked to your blog as well, everyday when I get on my computer I check my email then I check your blog and hope there is something new to read about. Because your life is so crazy right now this works well and I feel that I don’t need to call you all the time and bother you. I wish I could take another trip to see you again but funds, time and nausia(sp)-from planes, keep me here. I miss you and think and pray for you, J & E everyday. Your an inspiration and you are doing absolutely awesome as a mother and wife. Keep it up!
Love ya
stephanie says
you are an inspiration to me. and i know you’d much rather NOT be an inspiration to anyone and just have a “normal” life right now! but you are definately coping and dealing and “growing where you are planted”. you have a great attitude- it’s real- but it’s also hopeful. i hope and pray that your dh comes home SOON. i want your little family to be back together again.
soldierdeb says
Hang in there – you are doing great. Your little girl is beautiful, your crafts are inspirational (if I only had a sewing machine, a bit of time and an ounce of sewing skills), and your updates about bargain finds make me smile.
Just keep praying… even if the prayer starts like, “God, you know I don’t want to pray today….”
Christie says
This warmed my heart to read. I’m so joyful to know I could provide even a little encouragement to you!
And if you don’t mind, I might e-mail you with some craft questions!
Karen says
Thank you for writing a blog filled with astute observations and wonderful craft projects.
Being apart from my husband has taught me that it truly is the simple pleasures that matter most in life. I look forward to each and every new post because it reminds me that we are not alone and many other wives are on the same exact rollercoaster of emotion that a deployment leads us on.
Anxiously awaiting another post…. 🙂
Karen
Dorothy says
I have been waiting on a new post see I am almost addicted! I love love love reading your blog!
THANK U(your family) for sacrificing a year of deployment so my husband can be home with his babies and next year your baby will have her daddy home while mine is away. Thats how I try to look at it. It helped a little while J was deployed. Watching lil kids out in public with momma and daddy together! It hurt but I am was happy to see those lil kids happy!
Take it one day at a time he will be home before u know it!
Hugs!!